My confidence level plummets after the "blank" chinese oral. All I did was repeating and repeating. I can't add on when my teacher asked me to add on. Why has my chinese level decrease? why have I not be speaking proper chinese during the oral? I "er" "ar", that's not me! I don't do that! I use to have a 10-minute oral but now, 6-7minutes. However, I sat infront of my teacher for 15 minutes in total. She was talking about my chinese. She told me all I have is content, not language. And the worst thing is, when the topic is facing me, and I've no content about the topic, all I can do is to just fail!

I'm pretty sure I want an A1 for June's paper. Till now, it shows no improvement but de-provement. Is it because of the mixing of english and chinese? Is there such thing as "improve in english thn de-prove in chinese"? If that were to be the case, I wouldn't mind. But if that's not the case, I'm going to cry cause there's no time! simply no time! HWs are running towards me. Is secondary 4's life just different from secondary 3's? Why there's no more breathing space?

At least there's something to comfort me today - by doing the quiz by her and the english sit. writing. Although it's an open-book test, but I see favour in it. I sometimes wonder if I can score for humanities. How can I balance science and humanities? Well... at least today I know something, "to win is to sleep". Sleep at 10 and wake up 7 in the morning, quite healthy huh?!

And there's Olevel SPA examination tmr, hope nothing could affect me from the exam. I must score well! ok, so everything has been poured out to the blog, so nothing should be left in my brain. JIAYOU YUREN! JIAYOU "her" too!

tyr praised Jesus at 7:22 PM